Never been one to let the carrier drop

Woke up.. seriously time-shifted from working a 24 hour day day before yesterday – yesterday.. (as in, punched in at noon, punched out at one). There are still bugs. Well, there always are.

Had really awful dreams last night.. P. moved to some little town in them, and I was saying goodbye and leaving all the blankets with her and it was just really sad..

Bruce came by last night and we talked about design work on the UCM-II, and the possibility of him laying out Scotty. Of course, that involves either me doing a design session on scotty on my own, or getting Lee to move on it – and I gather he’s busy with other things. But I need these modules _today_..

And I still have a bunch of parking meter crap to do, not to mention that database to fix for circle-R (I’ve been working on it.. there’s something wrong with BuildRelevantTags)

Say something relevant, sheer, speaking of relevant tags.

Mike is coming over today. My Stranger ad brought many musicians interested in jamming, but not a single one of them is into electronica. Oh, I take that back, there’s one girl who is. But I gather there aren’t all that many people out there in the wilds into the idea of a electronica jam band..

all in all, life is depressing. Need to clean up house. Need to continue working on parking meters, but am already approaching my cap of $4000 for the mtrax application, and still much to do. Once again, I make bad time estimates and have to eat it. And the new boss is apparently a stickler for getting timing right. Well, I told him 6 weeks for mtrax and etm – I’m _ONE GUY_. I don’t have anyone to handle the administrivia so I can concentrate on coding, I don’t have a test person (H. claims he is but he never tests anything and when he does I get back emails which show he has no clue how the product works – I need a test person who actually makes a effort to understand the software.. but I digress)

The new shell app crashes whenever it’s run in release mode. Which is kind of frustrating because by definition when it’s in release mode ther eis no debugger.

I heard the news today oh boy.. about a lucky man who’d made the grade..

Echoes of dancerboy.

I always forget how awesome my friend Scott’s web site..

1. Scary Stories Series by Alvin Schwartz
2. Daddy’s Roommate by Michael Willhoite
3. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
4. The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier
5. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
6. Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
7. Forever by Judy Blume
8. Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson
9. Heather Has Two Mommies by Leslea Newman
10. The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
11. The Giver by Lois Lowry
12. My Brother Sam is Dead by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier
13. It’s Perfectly Normal by Robie Harris
14. Alice (Series) by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
15. Goosebumps (Series) by R.L. Stine
16. A Day No Pigs Would Die by Robert Newton Peck
17. The Color Purple by Alice Walker
18. Sex by Madonna
19. Earth’s Children (Series) by Jean M. Auel
20. The Great Gilly Hopkins by Katherine Paterson
21. In the Night Kitchen by Maurice Sendak
22. The Witches by Roald Dahl
23. A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
24. The New Joy of Gay Sex by Charles Silverstein
25. Go Ask Alice by Anonymous
26. The Goats by Brock Cole
27. The Stupids (Series) by Harry Allard
28. Anastasia Krupnik (Series) by Lois Lowry
29. Final Exit by Derek Humphry
30. Blubber by Judy Blume
31. Halloween ABC by Eve Merriam
32. Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George
33. Kaffir Boy by Mark Mathabane
34. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
35. What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Girls: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Daughters by Lynda Madaras
36. Fallen Angels by Walter Dean Myers
37. The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood
38. The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton
39. The Pigman by Paul Zindel
40. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
41. We All Fall Down by Robert Cormier
42. Deenie by Judy Blume
43. Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
44. Annie on my Mind by Nancy Garden
45. Beloved by Toni Morrison
46. The Boy Who Lost His Face by Louis Sachar
47. Cross Your Fingers, Spit in Your Eye! by Alvin Schwartz
48. Harry Potter (Series) by J.K. Rowling
49. Cujo by Stephen King
50. James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl
51. A Light in the Attic by Shel Silverstein
52. Ordinary People by Judith Guest
53. American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis
54. Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
55. Sleeping Beauty Trilogy by A.N. Roquelaure (Anne Rice)
56. Bumps in the Night by Harry Allard
57. Asking About Sex and Growing Up by Joanna Cole
58. What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Boys: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Sons by Lynda Madaras
59. The Anarchist Cookbook by William Powell
60. Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret by Judy Blume
61. Boys and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
62. Crazy Lady by Jane Conly
63. Athletic Shorts by Chris Crutcher
64. Killing Mr. Griffin by Lois Duncan
65. Fade by Robert Cormier
66. Guess What? by Mem Fox
67. Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
68. Lord of the Flies by William Golding
69. Native Son by Richard Wright
70. Women on Top: How Real Life Has Changed Women’s Fantasies by Nancy Friday
71. Curses, Hexes and Spells by Daniel Cohen
72. On My Honor by Marion Dane Bauer
73. The House of Spirits by Isabel Allende
74. Jack by A.M. Homes
75. Arizona Kid by Ron Koertge
76. Family Secrets by Norma Klein
77. Mommy Laid An Egg by Babette Cole
78. Bless Me, Ultima by Rudolfo A. Anaya
79. Where Did I Come From? by Peter Mayle
80. The Face on the Milk Carton by Caroline Cooney
81. Carrie by Stephen King
82. The Dead Zone by Stephen King
83. The Adventures of Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain
84. Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison
85. Always Running by Luis Rodriguez
86. Private Parts by Howard Stern
87. Where’s Waldo? by Martin Hanford
88. Summer of My German Soldier by Bette Greene
89. Tiger Eyes by Judy Blume
90. Little Black Sambo by Helen Bannerman
91. Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett
92. Running Loose by Chris Crutcher
93. Sex Education by Jenny Davis
94. Jumper by Steven Gould
95. Christine by Stephen King
96. The Drowning of Stephen Jones by Bette Greene
97. That Was Then, This is Now by S.E. Hinton
98. Girls and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
99. The Wish Giver by Bill Brittain
100. Jump Ship to Freedom by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier

I was going to post about my dream this morning, but I decided it was too dark and too odd and not meaningful enough – (I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, the dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had – Tears for Fears..)

So anyway, here’s some new tracks: (these are small enough that even you dialup people could manage if you tried)

Lyrics by Esen & Sheer, music by Sheer

and some covers:

And with my friend – never mind the fact we’ve never met

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That latest version of Love/Hate was goth, for sure, without a doubt. Despite the electronica-style intro.

I’m really starting to get into this recording stuff. Some of my latest tracks have been sooo coool… well, I think so anyway.

http://www.dfw.com/mld/dfw/news/columnists/dave_lieber/7643262.html

Ah, reminds me of the good old days. You know, I had a friend who will remain nameless who wrote a peice of software that destroyed disk drives on apple-][es, and I don’t think they did anything to him for that. They finally suspended him for putting Virus Creation Labs on the LAN (which I don’t think they should have – I mean, it’s a good objective way to learn assembly programming, it’s about as educational as they come. I admit, you can do some pretty evil things with it, but come to that you can do some pretty evil things with a text editor too)

Anyway, a long standing reaction of the school systems everywhere to anything they don’t understand is to suspend, expell, or otherwise harass the people involved. There’s a long standing tradition of discouraging individual thought in schools, and it looks like it’s still alive and well.

No wonder we suck so much.

S.

In between working tonight, I’ve discovered (or was given a link to actually) a app which tracks my winamp song usage and compiles histories and stats using it. For those of you who are curious, you can now see what I’m currently listening to / into by looking here. I also linked it off my web page. I have no reason to expect it won’t just stay working as long as I manage to keep paying the phone bills.

Which reminds me, I’ve decided in order to save money that I’m going to close my account with Isomedia and turn my house line up to 5 megabits. This will result in my local loop bill being about $250 – but my Iso bill is currently $400 a month. In addition, this will give me a lot more bandwidth, since 5 megabits is my peak usage at Iso, and my average is closer to 64 kbits. ANd, since blarg is unmetered, this means I can do really interesting things..

S.

Parking meters are slowly creeping forward – that being what they generally do.

I had a dream last night.. well yesterday, since I’m sleeping during the day – that I was in a city that got nuke-bombed. It was a very odd dream – repeated shots of the buildings exploding and collapsing in a strange wave-front kind of way, then me driving frantically away in my dad’s old Camry (which was kind of unrealistic, givin EMP ;-)), then a direct hit – and then I was walking around on the remains. There was this strange sort of glass everywhere – I mean literally there were almost no structures and the ground everywhere had turned into black glass and it cut my feet and I was trying to clear a spot.

Then I woke up.

Very disturbing dream.

I’m not going to talk about the drama in my personal life yet – among other things, I’m not really sure what to say. It all hurts.

S.

Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz

Yep, that’s me.

S.

My muttered comment as I crawl out of bed (entirely too early) and check my mail.. ‘maybe the spammers have taken christmas off’.

ha ha ha.

I’m so funny.

I’ve never _seen_ so much spam. My anti-spam system caught 83 peices today, and (horrors) six slipped through to my inbox. Not counting the wotch.com semi-spam which I’ve decided I like enough to put on t he whitelist.

Blah.

Yeesh, people, it’s christmas, take a break.

On the other hand, the peer-to-peer nets are humming. My download is almost half of my upload. 😉

[For those of you who don’t keep track, for whatever reason my line stays 100% in use in upload, but only about 30% in use in download for whatever bandwidth cap I sset. I theorize that this is because WinMX users are a bunch of leeches.]

I just hit the ‘latest 50 posts’ or something like that button on the front page of LJ. It’s interesting.. a random slice of a bunch of people’s lives, scrolling across your screen. It seemed almost like I could sort the people into types.. I mean, each of them a distinct and no doubt facinating individual, with loves and hates and thoughts and fears and all those things, but also they somehow all seemed to blur togeather into a great mass of humanity as well.

Peace out, people.

I did see many posts in otehr languages, which made me happy. I really love the journaling thing. I want to write a journal-spider that creates database tables that one can write all sorts of interesting queries on based on the global at-large journal world. but then, I also want to write a program that just evolves, and IS, and is connected to the net. Something that uses perl and eval and genetic algorythms to be as alive as code ever can be.

just like I’d like to build a robot. And I’d like to get a album out. And I’d like to clean the basement. And I’d like to mail off this stupid PC that’s been done for weeks and is sitting behind me gathering dust and being tripped over. I had a IM from Greg today.. probably wants to know where the hell his computer is. Can’t blame him.

Mostly, I want to be DONE with parking meters for a while.

My new years resolutions are as follows:

1) Buy less stuff. Specifically, buy less new stuff which is made in china by a bunch of slaves. Used stuff is okay IMHO.
2) Make more friends.
3) Save more money. I want to have a full year’s operating capitol banked in case of emergancy, _out_ of the stock market. Maybe even in gold or some other hard resource. [and no, I don’t think music gear counts]

If anyone is looking for last minute presents for me, a subscription to Home Power and/or Funny Times would be appriciated.