Never been one to let the carrier drop

This is just a first rough approximation. I’m planning on updating it as things get more under control.

With a serious yawn. I couldn’t sleep very well last night – went to sleep at like 4a, after taking Lunestra at 3:10 or so.

I think maybe a slightly higher dose of thst might be called for. I’ll talk to Woody about it the next time I see him.

But, anyway. I might have a guy coming to lay some tracks in the studio tonight, there might be a crew coming to remove the motorcycle tonight (for which I actually am being paid, mark me astonished)

Well, time to prepare to face the day..

Must.. go.. buy.. coffee..

Sheer

So I have these DEC multias that haven’t booted in about ten million years, and I’m thinking about putting one of them back in service to drive my monthly calander ‘on the wall’.

I don’t know. I’m trying to come up with ways to use the tools that surround me to build organizational structures that help me to find my way around my life without being so terrified, lost, confused, harried, cluttered, overworked, or..

It’s day 17.

My shrink had me watch Bitter MOon. I made it to 1:21 before I pressed stop. I’m not sure how he’s going to react to me having pressed stop, but I can’t tell you anything else that was reasonable to do.

Now to install a version of MediaWiki for Fisix, and then to bed.

I keep wanting to place orders at digikey for my BMS, start movement forward based on the design I beleive in, which involves transformer isolation rather than optical isolation. And then I remember that I liked EVIL as a standard..

I don’t know. EVIL just feels so delicately balanced. The transformer isolated version is very, very not subtle.

Day 16 draws to a close.

I’m very tired.

Didn’t get as much done with FDS today as I wanted to, but at least I’ve got Flex back to where it’s working. (my previous install had expired, and then it took me a while to figure out that it’s now stored under Adobe rather than Macromedia since Adobe bought Macromedia. Fun fun fun.

S.

In order to improve life for all humans on the planet, we should let all Federal Agents go home with pay. In fact, we should MAKE them go home with pay.

Face it, we don’t need cops that report to the federal government. Cops should always report to and be accountable to the local community. Otherwise, we end up with tragedies like the drug war.

In fact, I’m inclined strongly to disband the federal government and call a constitutional convention. Invite *anyone*. Publicize it widely, use wiki technology and data terminals in public libraries to rebuild the constitution, making it take into account modern viewpoints and modern technology. Not that the original constitution isn’t a work of art.. but look around us. People being shot, people afraid to leave their houses.. the original constition was a great idea, but it doesn’t scale very well to 280 million people. We need a better document, and I think both the Left and Right know it, in their bones. The ‘net and birth control and a bunch of other technological innovations changed the rules.

What’s needed first is a very hard, deep look at what money is, what control is, and why authority is dangerous

But then, this is coming from someone who would largely restrict parental authority over children, who can not deal with any authority that isn’t friendly and on his side, and who thinks that the cold war people should all be ashamed of themselves and every single one of them should help to dismantle this mess of atomic bombs that they put togeather.

New rule: You can only launch a atomic bomb if you are willing to first fly to the location and stand at ground zero while the strike occurs.

My new pet peeve: Answering machines which cut me off.

Sunday, Day 16, clocking in, wow am I sore today..

Well, that was a fun and adventure filled day. Installed MediaWiki on EvTech. We’ll see if it becomes filled with useful information or spam. At any rate it’s somewhere for me to keep my notes. For all I know John Lussermeyer has set up a wonderful EV wiki. Or someone. In which case I’m sure someone will get around to telling me sooner or later.

I’m *exhausted* from cleaning for hours.. I cleaned up the studio a noticable amount, and the living room some and the bedroom some and the hall some..

And now I sleep.

I’m thinking about making this year porn-free as well. Not that I’m really looking at porn – in fact, at this point, the procedure to get at my porn collection is about six commands long, because I wanted it in a encrypted volume so that no one would have to deal with it in the case of my untimely demise*. (I like strange porn – no, nothing illegal – and I wouldn’t want for example my parents to have to deal with my tastes in porn as they were cleaning out my ‘puter after my death). I can’t remember the last time I looked at porn on the computer, but it was probably >1 month ago. However, a friend of mine is going porn-free and I thought, well..

Kayti has some interesting points about porn. The problem with porn isn’t the receiver, it’s the transmitter. People making porn could be in one of several buckets:
a: It could be something that was shot just for one person, and after the relationship broke up the person broke trust and put it on the ‘net, for any number of reasons. I know people who have done this for revenge. Or the person could have just inadvertantly put it on the net.. for a couple of days many years ago, there were naked pictures of me and Vinnie on the net because I forgot they were in a ‘roll’ I put up publicly. My long term solution for this has been to be MUCH more careful, and no similar incidents have occured since then that I’m aware of.
b: It could be commercial porn, in which case you don’t know how well the actors are treated and how happy they are with their jobs. They might be getting shot in return for drugs they’re addicted to, or coerced in any number of other ways. Or they might be happy, well ajusted, well paid talent. But there’s no way to know, so by supporting commercial porn (even by looking at it, even if you don’t pay for it) you could be supporting the hurting of people.
c: It could be amatuar porn made by someone who deliberately wanted to make amatuar porn and is made happy by it – like, it’s their hobby. If so, then all is good and well and look and enjoy.

Problem is, I see no way to differentiate just by looking between these buckets. Well shot amatuar porn looks like professional porn, and amatuar porn for one person looks like amatuar porn for the world generally.

In the meantime there’s also the issue of me looking at porn and closing out the rest of the world while I do it, and all the ‘classic’ reasons why people don’t like porn. And there is such a thing, I’ve been told, as porn addiction.

So, I’m considering strongly making this a porn-free year. That’s not hard to impliment, since I’m not looking at porn right now. And I feel like it might make Kayti happy.

* = (I know that planning for death when your <30 is kind of silly, but what can I say.. a lot of my friends have died / made the Jump, and my recent behavior with nitrous made death seem a possible end.) In the matter of planning for death, I need to prepare a living will and a dead will. I don't plan on doing these all official-like and through lawyers, instead I'll go with the theory that I'm dead, so if you all ignore my wishes, so what? The living will is mostly just to make sure that you all don't bankrupt anyone trying to keep me going, and you all don't prolong my life 20 years but leave me in misery.