Never been one to let the carrier drop

In order to improve life for all humans on the planet, we should let all Federal Agents go home with pay. In fact, we should MAKE them go home with pay.

Face it, we don’t need cops that report to the federal government. Cops should always report to and be accountable to the local community. Otherwise, we end up with tragedies like the drug war.

In fact, I’m inclined strongly to disband the federal government and call a constitutional convention. Invite *anyone*. Publicize it widely, use wiki technology and data terminals in public libraries to rebuild the constitution, making it take into account modern viewpoints and modern technology. Not that the original constitution isn’t a work of art.. but look around us. People being shot, people afraid to leave their houses.. the original constition was a great idea, but it doesn’t scale very well to 280 million people. We need a better document, and I think both the Left and Right know it, in their bones. The ‘net and birth control and a bunch of other technological innovations changed the rules.

What’s needed first is a very hard, deep look at what money is, what control is, and why authority is dangerous

But then, this is coming from someone who would largely restrict parental authority over children, who can not deal with any authority that isn’t friendly and on his side, and who thinks that the cold war people should all be ashamed of themselves and every single one of them should help to dismantle this mess of atomic bombs that they put togeather.

New rule: You can only launch a atomic bomb if you are willing to first fly to the location and stand at ground zero while the strike occurs.

My new pet peeve: Answering machines which cut me off.

Sunday, Day 16, clocking in, wow am I sore today..

Well, that was a fun and adventure filled day. Installed MediaWiki on EvTech. We’ll see if it becomes filled with useful information or spam. At any rate it’s somewhere for me to keep my notes. For all I know John Lussermeyer has set up a wonderful EV wiki. Or someone. In which case I’m sure someone will get around to telling me sooner or later.

I’m *exhausted* from cleaning for hours.. I cleaned up the studio a noticable amount, and the living room some and the bedroom some and the hall some..

And now I sleep.

I’m thinking about making this year porn-free as well. Not that I’m really looking at porn – in fact, at this point, the procedure to get at my porn collection is about six commands long, because I wanted it in a encrypted volume so that no one would have to deal with it in the case of my untimely demise*. (I like strange porn – no, nothing illegal – and I wouldn’t want for example my parents to have to deal with my tastes in porn as they were cleaning out my ‘puter after my death). I can’t remember the last time I looked at porn on the computer, but it was probably >1 month ago. However, a friend of mine is going porn-free and I thought, well..

Kayti has some interesting points about porn. The problem with porn isn’t the receiver, it’s the transmitter. People making porn could be in one of several buckets:
a: It could be something that was shot just for one person, and after the relationship broke up the person broke trust and put it on the ‘net, for any number of reasons. I know people who have done this for revenge. Or the person could have just inadvertantly put it on the net.. for a couple of days many years ago, there were naked pictures of me and Vinnie on the net because I forgot they were in a ‘roll’ I put up publicly. My long term solution for this has been to be MUCH more careful, and no similar incidents have occured since then that I’m aware of.
b: It could be commercial porn, in which case you don’t know how well the actors are treated and how happy they are with their jobs. They might be getting shot in return for drugs they’re addicted to, or coerced in any number of other ways. Or they might be happy, well ajusted, well paid talent. But there’s no way to know, so by supporting commercial porn (even by looking at it, even if you don’t pay for it) you could be supporting the hurting of people.
c: It could be amatuar porn made by someone who deliberately wanted to make amatuar porn and is made happy by it – like, it’s their hobby. If so, then all is good and well and look and enjoy.

Problem is, I see no way to differentiate just by looking between these buckets. Well shot amatuar porn looks like professional porn, and amatuar porn for one person looks like amatuar porn for the world generally.

In the meantime there’s also the issue of me looking at porn and closing out the rest of the world while I do it, and all the ‘classic’ reasons why people don’t like porn. And there is such a thing, I’ve been told, as porn addiction.

So, I’m considering strongly making this a porn-free year. That’s not hard to impliment, since I’m not looking at porn right now. And I feel like it might make Kayti happy.

* = (I know that planning for death when your <30 is kind of silly, but what can I say.. a lot of my friends have died / made the Jump, and my recent behavior with nitrous made death seem a possible end.) In the matter of planning for death, I need to prepare a living will and a dead will. I don't plan on doing these all official-like and through lawyers, instead I'll go with the theory that I'm dead, so if you all ignore my wishes, so what? The living will is mostly just to make sure that you all don't bankrupt anyone trying to keep me going, and you all don't prolong my life 20 years but leave me in misery.

Once someone truly learns to use their imagination, no jail can hold them, no job can grind them down, no religion can convince them they are bad and evil and should be ashamed, and the words ‘bad choices’ stop having any sting at all. Imagination is Power. Imagination is Freedom.

Mine has gotten a major upgrade lately: My visualization skills have been amped up considerably. They appear on kind of a third visual channel, so perhaps this is what people mean when they talk about a ‘third eye’. Or perhaps not.

I’m hoping that if I exercise my viz skills, they will grow. Not saying I’m going to make a major practice of this.. I’ve still so many other skills to exercise.. but, I begged and begged for lucid dreaming and I feel like I’m getting a software upgrade that will permit me to do it.

I’m also unreasonably proud of myself for having not used in a dream last night.

A reminder, today’s meeting is at 5p instead of 6p.

Another reminder, dude is gonna be in the studio from 6p to 8p, might not be a bad idea to spend a hour down there before the meeting cleaning shit up.

This is day 15.

Another fun day. Tomorrow I’ve got a guy from $12_STEP_PROGRAM I don’t know coming into the studio to lay down some rap tracks. I’m going to have a fun time pretending I know what I’m doing, considering I’ve never recorded rap before in my life. But he says he already has the instrumental backing, he just wants a place to record the vocals, and theoretically at least I’m equipped to do that. I guess I’ll just fake it till it works. Anyway, I’m not charging him so really, how bad can it be when it’s free? So sez me.

Also got band practice tomorrow, then might be going with Tory Sunday to something for Jeremy et al. It’ll be good to go somewhere with Tory again, it’s been a long time. Kayti might be going too.

Feeling a bit overhwhelmed with all the mental health professionals that are currently a part of my life. E-mailed a lawyer about the accident, asking if he’d represent me. No-reply-at-all. Well, Jeffrey Serage says he knows someone, so perhaps I’ll try his contact if I don’t hear from the lawyer in a few days.

I might also try resending the mail from gmail just in case sheer.us is blackholed somewhere for some reason.

Mental note to self: check on Qwest and Blarg bills.

Anyway, clocking out for the day. Day 14 – 2 weeks. One day at a time.. deep breath.. one day at a time..

I was reading a long-ago entry where I was baggin’ on DJs spinning with CD players. Some of the best DJs I know DJ with CD players.

Dude, whatever equipment gets ya there, whatever words get you there, whatever operating system gets you there, whatever religion gets you there, whatever mantra gets you there, whatever car gets you there, whatever boat gets you there, whatever house gets you there, whatever lover gets you there, whatever friends get you there, whatever doctors get you there, whatever drugs get you there, whatever beliefs get you there, whatever hopes get you there, whatever dreams get you there, whatever habits get you there, whatever truths get you there..

The important thing.. is to be there.

I think they misquoted Ford. I think what he said was, ‘we’ll ship ’em black.. and then they’ll paint ’em whatever color they like’.

Love ya all,

Sheer

For any of you who had problem with www.wshr.org, there’s now a Java based version at www.wshr.us.

It may take me a while to get my act togeather enough to keep music always queued up.

Eventually maybe I’ll get a live365 bridge.