Okay, since there was apparently some confusion on this matter
June 6th, 2002None of the people [well, actually, only one of the people, but I won’t tell you which one neener neener] in my friends list is a ‘ex-girlfriend of sheer’. My exes – and currents – read my journal, but don’t have LJ accounts of their own and thusly can’t friend me.
Takes all the fun out of things. They get to see exactly what I’m doing and thinking about, and I don’t have a clue about them.
Anyway, back to my regularly scheduled life.
Gallaleo
June 6th, 2002I should be coding. but instead I’m typing in song lyrics. Bad sheer.
galileo’s head was on the block
the crime was looking up for truth
and as the bombshells of my daily fears explode
i try to trace them to my youth
and then you had to bring up reincarnation
over a couple of beers the other night
and now i’m serving time for mistakes
made by another in another lifetime
how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight
and then i think about my fear of motion
which i never could explain
some other fool across the ocean years ago
must have crashed his little airplane
how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight
i’m not making a joke, you know me
i take everything so seriously
if we wait for the time till all souls get it right
then at least i know there’ll be no nuclear annihilation
in my lifetime i’m still not right
i offer thanks to those before me
that’s all i’ve got to say
’cause maybe you squandered big bucks in your lifetime
now i have to pay
but then again it feels like some sort of inspiration
to let the next life off the hook
but she’ll say “look what i had to overcome from my last life
i think i’ll write a book”
how long till my soul gets it right
can any human being ever reach the highest light
except for galileo god rest his soul
(except for the resting soul of galileo)
king of night vision, king of insight
how long
(till my soul gets it right)
[til we reach the highest light]
how long
(till my soul gets it right)
[til we reach the highest light]
how long
Whee!
June 6th, 2002The folowing is courtesy of www.colorgenics.com. Yet another web-based figure-out-what-makes-you-tick test. 😉
You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to ‘All things bright and beautiful’. This personifies a caring person, a person who ‘needs’ and indeed ‘needs to be needed’.
You are a leader and possibly at this time in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.
You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.
Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.
You wish to be left in peace… no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don’t want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for ‘them’ to get on with it – and to leave you alone.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.
Wow, more readers.
June 5th, 2002I seem to have garnered a few more readers since last check. P. was joking about starting a ‘ex-girlfriends-of-sheer’ club – it’s possible that my LJ readers list will someday soon look like same.
Anyway, on to what I’m up to. Still trying to retrofit the suspension of my car, and have actually succeeded in finding the parts I need to do it, all praise to Roy and the EVDL. [Whee!] For those of you who came late to the party, I drive a electric vehicle. It’s a ’86 honda accord, I did the conversion myself at Saddleback Community College with much help from Prof. Macfarland and Leo Galcher, it’s got a top speed of [estimated] 120 mph [We’ve verified 100, and with the current suspension, that was scary enough] and a range of 112 miles at freeway speeds. Maybe a bit less once the batteries finish breaking in.
Anyway, so that’s the car, you can see it at it’s homepage. Although ti’s horribly out of date because I’m a bad, evil, awful person.
I also have been doing a lot of consulting, to help prop up the bank account. Oh, and I bought a motorcycle today, so I can relive my teenage rebel-without-a-clue days. Except this one is a bit more powerful. [The speedo actually reads up to the triple digits.. let us hope I am never foolish enough to try doing _that_]
Talked to my mother today. That’s always fun. She wants me to get health insurance. This will somehow make my life safer. I didn’t ask what she thought all the poor people who were shafted by the president she elected should do. 😉
Anyway, I have nothing new and exotic to say today.
Stand And Deliver, Mr. Mister
June 3rd, 2002No, this isn’t a romantic song for me – although it could be. Rather, it’s a song for getting back ‘up’.
Some people hate and expect affection
Some people lie and demand the truth
I gotta ask myself if it’s all deception
Is this a natural thing that we all just do?
We take such pleasure from pain
I’m just tired of playing that game
Some things you’ve got to change
You’ve got to stand and deliver
With your body and soul
Stand and deliver
Just give me something to hold
Stand and deliver
If the truth can be told
We can make it togeather
If we stand, stand and deliver
Some times my mind drives me to distraction
I want to shut all the windows and lock the doors
But every time I get a little bit of satisfaction
I see the walls come tumbling to the floor
I know in this life you’ve gotta stand up for what feels right
Each day and every night
You’ve got to stand and deliver
With your body and soul
stand and deliver
Just give me something to hold
Stand and deliver
If the truth can be told
We can make it togeather
If we stand and deliver
stand and deliver
okay..
June 2nd, 2002Okay, I’m over the breif angst fit, I think.
And did two more segments of the evparts web site, besides.
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June 1st, 2002Maybe I should start maintaing a private journal where I can write down what I actually think about everything.
The fact that I would need a private journal to do same bothers me. I always wanted to operate in the open – but it seems like I’m always upsetting somebody.
Pondering ‘The policy of truth’.
I don’t know. I just want to curl up and whimper, but I also know that that will just piss off P. who wants me to be happy, dammit. Or at least pretend.
Argh.
Argh.
Back to work demacizing evparts.com.
Anyone want to trade lives with me?
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June 1st, 2002
What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com /
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Joy.
I think my life has too much drama in it. Or something. Every once in a while I suspect that people are trying to mess with my head.
I’ll get over it.
Long time no update
June 1st, 2002Well, it’s been a while since I set fingers to keyboard to pen my thoughts. Mostly, I’ve been too busy to breathe, with the mk3, the linuxizing of the mac web site, personal problems galore, and things of that nature.
But, I’m still out here, still doing my thing, whatever exactly that is.
Radio silence from me, if you’re a friend of mine, just means that I’m experiencing depression and don’t wish to pass it on.
S.