my offspring..

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Since I no longer believe it is ethical to create life without that life’s permission (and it’s basically impossible, as far as I can tell, to get permission prior to the creation) I’m not sure how I feel about N. – obviously I don’t want him/her to stop existing (unless he/she really, really chooses to) but I feel very guilty at this point for having created him/her – I guess when worrying about teenage pregnancy and whatnot I worried about the more pragmatic matters like how I would pay for half a kid and what the girl’s parents would do to me, but not the more existential things like how life is painful and how there are horrible things like cancer and natural disasters and how at the very best you’re going to get to die of old age with system after system going offline in incredibly painful ways and how no one should be bringing more people into this world to suffer thusly..

So, yeah, I feel guilty about N.

Bleh.

S.

3 Responses to “my offspring..”

  1. kentuckyjade Says:

    but not the more existential things like how life is painful and how there are horrible things like cancer and natural disasters and how at the very best you’re going to get to die of old age with system after system going offline in incredibly painful ways and how no one should be bringing more people into this world to suffer thusly..

    Maybe because of all these things we bring new life into this world. Maybe every life is a new ray of hope for the rest of us. Yes, selfish, but isn’t the nature of mankind to be selfish?

    Also, each new life might just have the answer to end cancer or natural disasters, etc..

    Of course, maybe there would be some more motivation to find these answers if there was the impending doom that life wouldn’t go on — that there would be no new life.

    Maybe I’m just babbling.

    And could you explain to me the whole Nathan/Natalie ? I’m confused. I know one part but not all of it.

  2. goamaki Says:

    But you never know what will happen in life…
    My friend Julie’s whole 9mos of pregnancy was easy, and then during the birth the baby wasn’t breathing for 10 minutes, thus ending up having brain damage for the rest of her life. But she smiles, she laughs, she wants to talk, she moves, she has a QUALITY of life, even if that quality isn’t like “ours”. Doesn’t make people love her any less.
    I guess it’s pretty natural for you to feel guilty, but that’s something you’re going to have to put aside, and just simply embrace what life has handed you. She doesn’t need your guilt. She needs you love.

  3. ClintJCL Says:

    You could use a time machine, go to the alternate future where X was born, and ask X if, in the past, you should have X…

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