Never been one to let the carrier drop

Well, I saw fireworks from the freeway
and behind closed eyes I can not make them go away
Because you were born on the forth of july, freedom rings
but something on the surface it stinks

I said something on the surface,
well it kind of makes me nervious
who says that you deserve this
and what kind of god would serve this
We will cure this dirty old disease

Well if you’ve got the poisen, I’ve got’s the remedy

chorus
The remedy is the experience
this is a dangerous liason
the comedy is that it’s serious
this is a strange enough new play on words
I said the tragedy is how you’re gonna spend
the rest of your nights with the light on
so shine the light on all of your friends:
It all amounts to nothing in the end

I won’t worry my life away
I won’t worry my life away
End chorus

Well I heard two men talking ont he radio
In a cross-fire kind of new reality show
uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
well they were counting down the ways
to stab the brother in the be right back after this
the unavoidable kiss
with the minty fresh breath, death is sure to outlast
this catastrophe
dance with me
Cuz if you’ve gots the poisen, I’ve got the remedy

[chorus repeats]
[bridge

When I fall in love
I take my time
There’s no need to hurry when I’m making up my mind
you can turn off the sun
but I’m still going to shine
and I’ll tell you why

[chorus repeats with really nifty bass walk behind it]

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Or, as Melissa Etheridge put it, Remember how they taught you, how much of it was fear. Refuse to hand it down – this legacy stops here

I’m sure we’re neither the first nor the last generation to recognize how much of our lives are ruled by fear – so many of the fears completely unreasonable, or even often pointless. [Of late I’ve been discovering that all of my friends are afraid of the same things that I am – the things that I always assumed that I was alone in being afraid of because no one else ever talked about them.]. Now which president was it who said ‘We have nothing to fear but fear itself?’.

Why are we so afraid?

Well, the media is carefully set up to make us afraid. A afraid population is a population that is far easier to lead around by the nose.. it’s much easier to keep those damn radicals from complaining about the loss of their rights and civil liberties when you can play off the fears of the rest of the citizenry.. ‘We’re doing this for your own protection. See, you have to be afraid, be very afraid’..

It’s always comic watching old movies, seeing last year’s enemy. Once the germans, then the russians, and now the arabs are the bad boys. Who knows who it will be next year, but it’s for sure we’ll still need a enemy – and have a enemy.

I wonder, if I could ride inside the mind of the leaders of the world, of the broadcasters of the news and setters of the type, of those who spin the worlds events, if I could even understand their thoughts and mindsets..

I wonder where we learn to be afraid – is it something like hate, that has to be carefully taught? Did I learn fear of rejection through years of constant rejection? And why was I rejected?

I think it was Ani DiFranco who said They showed me a picture, and asked me which one was different and does not belong. They taught me different was wrong.

And I still remember the principal of Hylton high school, when faced with irrefutable logic, stating.. without even realizing how much he would skew forever my worldview by saying so, ‘Divirsity in a high school is a bad thing, absolutely’. I don’t think he would have said it if he’d realized how much of the school would know what he’d said the next day, and I still wish I’d had a tape deck, but he did, in fact, believe.

Look at standardized testing. The goal is to produce ten thousand identical units.. I think it was ‘The One And Only’ which said And you’ll find I can’t wear any uniform without some compromises, because you’ll find that we come in different shapes and sizes.

I will purge this fear from my life. I will say hello to strangers. I will hug my friends and near friends of both genders without worrying about what they think. Honestly.. how sick is it when you don’t hug someone because you think they might be afraid that you’re gay and attracted to them.. this has got to STOP.

I refuse to be afraid any more. [Now if only I could find the root password to my subconcious mind. Of course, one might make a good argument for not giving me that.. you delete too many fears, you might delete one that was important and was underpinning your survival. I mean, you have to figure that some of them are there for a reason. A fear of high voltages, for example, is probably reasonable for someone in my profession. ;-)]

Or perhaps I need to reword that thought too. A respect for high voltages is probably essentual. Fear, not so much.

Changing fear to respect.

Hmm

‘What do you care what other people think’ – Richard Feynman.

Except of course that I do. Entirely too much.

Back to work..

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