If I were dropped into my current life with no memory of who I was, would I be happier or less happy?<\/p>\n
I don’t know. Having a day of feeling abjectly miserable. I know my emotions always ran strongly, but I don’t remember them running *this* strongly. The last few months seem confusing, unreal.. like they were lived by somebody else.<\/p>\n
I love Phoebe. I love Kayti. Phoebe is a door that is closed. I understand that, but it hurts. Kayti loves me. <\/p>\n
I really, really hate N2O. Yay, let’s invent a drug that will allow you to drown in air, that will disconnect emotions from memories just long enough to give you a false sense of peace and security, just so when the emotions reconnect to the memories it’s like a 2×4 over the head.<\/p>\n
Just for the record: I do not suggest large doses of nitrous oxide, or extended times under the influence of it, to anyone. <\/p>\n
And, as far as I can tell, my memories are all still there. <\/p>\n
I’m having a particularly strong spot of self-loathing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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