{"id":2450,"date":"2015-01-03T02:51:11","date_gmt":"2015-01-03T09:51:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/?p=2450"},"modified":"2015-01-03T02:54:35","modified_gmt":"2015-01-03T09:54:35","slug":"if-anyone-wants-to-see-my-struggle-with-my-understanding-of-my-childhood-and-vicky","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/uncategorized\/if-anyone-wants-to-see-my-struggle-with-my-understanding-of-my-childhood-and-vicky","title":{"rendered":"If anyone wants to see my struggle with my understanding of my childhood and Vicky.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There&#8217;s a lot of it in a bunch of sketches recorded at <A HREF=http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/stuff\/Vicky\/>http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/stuff\/Vicky\/<\/A>. This is only a small part of a very large story, and I hpoe to record many more songs about it as I work through it. <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m afraid to listen right now but someday I probably should.<\/p>\n<p>One thing that led to a lot of crying and a lot of .. release.. was reading what the first step of grief is. Suddenly I had a much better understanding of where I&#8217;ve been, sort of.<\/p>\n<p>http:\/\/psychcentral.com\/lib\/the-5-stages-of-loss-and-grief\/000617<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;-<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve had numerous discussions &#8211; via a mental effort I can&#8217;t explain &#8211; with someone who says she is &#8211; and who I believe to be &#8211; Vicky from the future, where we all know a lot more about what&#8217;s going on, where we are, and why we are what we are. I especially hope I can capture some of the message in music, because it is amazingly helpful stuff. If it&#8217;s true.. then this present darkness is not something that will be with humanity forever. There are countless songs in my music collection that reinforce the same message I got from her and others via this network that I can&#8217;t see, but which is always with me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There&#8217;s a lot of it in a bunch of sketches recorded at http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/stuff\/Vicky\/. This is only a small part of a very large story, and I hpoe to record many more songs about it as I work through it. I&#8217;m afraid to listen right now but someday I probably should. One thing that led to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2450"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2450"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2450\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2453,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2450\/revisions\/2453"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2450"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2450"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sheer.us\/weblogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2450"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}